If I Knew

I knew I wanted to write something; something to send into oblivion, but I forgot what it was. It was trivial, quirky, amusing, but I thought that the nonexistent reader would enjoy it. Sometimes you just need that; faith that your thoughts could have impact or simply be a silent cry that someone somehow hears. I guess that I could pray. Jesus, if you are reading this, please continue to love me. Pour down your love so hard that it is all I can breathe in. I'm scared to ask you for real. I guess that is why I will send it by email. I think about the tree of knowledge of good and evil. I know too much. Don't let me know what I don't need to know. Let me know what I do need to know. Give me passion to keep learning but not to worry. You'll let me know. If I already knew, what trust, what adventure would there be?